note to self

stay awake
stay alert
stay alive
fix missteps
fix mistakes
fix miscommunications


6 steps
6 ways
6 chances

note to self

the world is not as quiet and dark as it was when you woke up this morning
you’re not as solitary and alone as you feel when the lights are off
this is not a book or a film you are viewing from the outside.

this is your story and you are the main character so why are you just sitting there?
why won’t you get up and fight for the ending you want?
get up.
get up!
you can do anything in the world and you’re just sitting there, typing away!
get up!




note to self.

Just came home and had a good cry for no reason

It felt fucking great. Sometimes something that you’ve buried and ignored needs to boil over without you really being sure why.

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inhale, exhale, think
walk, talk, work, yawn, smile and nod
they can’t see past it

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bring out your dead dreams
place them in my wishing well
i can bring them back

note to self

today is a day of being unsure
today is a day of unusual schedules
and today is a day of running and rushing.

today is a day of silent suffering
today is a day of quivering chins
and today is a day of being strong.

today is a day of standing where others fall
today is a day of chins up and shoulders back
today is the day you know you’ll be okay.
she’ll be okay.
we’ll be okay.

note to self.

note to self

today, you’re in a weird place. 
you don’t feel quite right.
the coffee is cold and the lights are bright.
the voices are high pitched and the temp is not right.
but,
you’re still great.
this is temporary,
you are always.
this too, shall pass.

note to self.

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cold coffee charades 
burnt out cigarettes, corpses
line the empty page

I’m having a rough night. Solutions.

I’m having a rough night. Solutions.

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Let’s smile and let’s dance
look down over the city
it looks up, envy

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my eyes are bleary
my arms are heavy, and you
are still beautiful

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deep breath, dance it out
climb to the tree tops and shout
when will we be free?

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falling like bright stars
tearing down the earth below
see you, space cowboy

so i watched Firefly for the first time

and while I have not made it very far, every time I click on it on Netflix and it says “1 season”, I get this awful pain right where my heart should go.

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past your fingertips
reaching out into the world
i feel you, close by

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY